So creepy stalker boy is not gone he asked me to semi formal today and nothing terribly embarrassing happened which is kind of suspicious but good but I said no because I have drama 4-8 hooray for terrible British accents! rejecting creepy stalker boy is hard on me too because I get embarrassed when embarrassing things happen and I feel terrible when I hurt people I feel even more useless and its like all this terrible flooding emotion at once and I wish I could just tell him that he seems nice but I need to have conversation before I do relationships or even dates. Oh but I could possibility have my first crush but it such a big maybe because I haven't really talked to her and she is a her and I don't even know if she swings that way. But I know she thinks I'm pretty (cause she will flat out tell me...terribly uncomfortable) and I know i think she is gorgeous but I dont even know her name -_- <--- exact reason I avoid crushes.
I love losing calories exercising but I dont want huge muscles! like I see people with nice waists and tree trunk thighs 100% muscle and it scares me! It is absolutely horrifying especially scince I already have like 0 fat on my thighs but they arnt perfect because of muscle and I didnt work out and it was still 100%!
xoxo,
Honey
stalker boy just needs to back off already
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