first diet that dictates ...not elimantes food

I hear it works and you can loes up to 18 pounds ig is for 9 days and goes like this
day 1- 3 = only rice, boiled with a little bit of salt
day 4-6 = only chiken, no skin, cook in most greece draining way possiable
day 6-9 = apples
and only water.

Today at school I told the class about how on saterday I tryed portugese food for the first time and - in union- they all sayed WHAT!? because the whole class is portugese and so is most of the town, it was soooo freaky.
Whats funnier is that I told them right after Mara told them about a massive car crash killing alot of people that happend this weekend. And so you know and dont think I just run around telling everyone about my life it was share your wekend time....yeah, brings you back to kindergarten ai.
Also this weekend I hung out with brigette which lead to handiung out with shanice at her new house and I now consider them friends...thats big for me. They are cool and I dont ahve to hold back or feel lame with how I act. Even better I cross a tick of my list at the bottem of this page =)

                                                                                                           xoxo,
                                                                                                             Honey

-_- Please give up dear stalker boy

So creepy stalker boy is not gone he asked me to semi formal today and nothing terribly embarrassing happened which is kind of suspicious but good but I said no because I have drama 4-8 hooray for terrible British accents! rejecting creepy stalker boy is hard on me too because I get embarrassed when embarrassing things happen and I feel terrible when I hurt people I feel even more useless and its like all this terrible flooding emotion at once and I wish I could just tell him that he seems nice but I need to have conversation before I do relationships or even dates. Oh but I could possibility have my first crush but it such a big maybe because I haven't really talked to her and she is a her and I don't even know if she swings that way. But I know she thinks I'm pretty (cause she will flat out tell me...terribly uncomfortable) and I know i think she is gorgeous but I dont even know her name -_- <--- exact reason I avoid crushes.
I love losing calories exercising but I dont want huge muscles! like I see people with nice waists and tree trunk thighs 100% muscle and it scares me! It is absolutely horrifying especially scince I already have like 0 fat on my thighs but they arnt perfect because of muscle and I didnt work out and it was still 100%!

                                                                                                    xoxo,
                                                                                                      Honey

Snacking on air { How can you just say THAT }

Today I went and saw the new harry potter movie with tiffany and while there ahe openly, out right, infornt of a theater of people said "yeah I was caught starving myself in the summer so now my parents keep an eye on me."
that stunned me...I was like WTF!? Who says something like that 1. in public 2. to someone they barley know,
how can someone possibly be that opened and talk about something that serious just like that. alothough she doesnt know how important starving is to me and people like me but that made me really uncomfortiable. Ans she is not the thinest person, infact she is rather large and that made me think so thats wht a relapse looks like.
I also had surprise tryouts for a school play and I over exaggerated my angry tone and I messed my song but heres hopeing, I have another tryout tomorrow and Friday at lunch and I suppose that it doesn't really matter to me because I am already a major role in a Oliver twist play and I'm not sure just how many lines I can memorize.
And if you were wondering this was the best harry potter movie yet and I'm not crazy into the potter saga but it was good like GOOD good and I recommend it.

                                                                                              xoxo,
                                                                                                 Honey

Sorry i found some great thinspo but blogger wont let me upload anything so I'll give you extra later.

Strive to buy pants that fit your waist not our fat.

I am in love with the elliptical, so far the best machine that burns the most calories in the shortest amount of time 400 calories in 30 minutes. Also I have just gotten the facebook message form sherry and we made it to provincials in DECCA praise the lord my guilt trip can stop.
The other day I had to take a music test and it was so embarrassing I couldn't make a single noise for like five minutes of everyone staring at me pathetically trying to play hot cross buns on the clarinet....it hurt T~T so now I'm retaking the test tomorrow.....UGH.  I remember when people were all like high school is nothing like degrassi and all that shiz dont worry all those embarrassing moments dont exist, and I naively believed them but boy was I wrong it is WORSE than degrassi. Well thats all thats been up hope your days have been good

                                                                                           xoxo
                                                                                              Luna

                                                                            

you can wear me down and I'll take it but soon enough I'll break

I apologize for my absence but you know how it is when sometimes your just so tiered and empty that you really just don't care well I had a few of those days. so heres a quick fill in. I had a Decca competition which is just a business meeting where your are ranked on how professional you are and I tried really hard I even went out and had to thrift shop for a suit cause I'm poor but then I got to Decca and sherry (my partner) flipped shit and got really angry and you know how anger brings out the worst in people? TRUE she cut my pants, ruined my hair, made me ask a complete stranger for shoes and then spent the rest of the day ragging on my and blameing me for evrything that went wrong. Jasmins birthday today and I really dont want to go to the party but I'm boxed in now and April is going to be there hanging off of her and it sgoing to drive me carzy because she belives that they are acactualy friends and as soon as fayth and jasmin stop fighting April is going to be history and come back to me but this time I dont want here back I cant give my all to someone who doesnt even like me anymore, all she ever did was step on my feelings and use me and right now I really dont have the energy for it. Aparently we arent tealling my stepdad that we are moving, yeah I'm sure thats gonna turn out well :S. Its kind of funny though
my mom wouldn't leave him when he hit my sister, when he hit me, or the rare times he hit her but as soon as he asks her to lay down her pride for a second its over....I'm gonna miss him though he bugs me so much but its hard to go eleven years without getting attached to someone I mean I can barely remember a time without him and what about when I move in with my father next year? mom says she'll pick up another job and just work and come home... what kind of life is that...well talk to you later I'm leaving for Jasmin bye. stay strong and I want you to know your comments are appreciated and they are sometimes the only bit of joy in my day.

Now I have a new reason to love bones! this whole day was kind of weird I lost my assignment that was sue, missed the bus, then found out my parents (step dad of 11 years and mom) are splitting up and I'm moving to an apartment with my mom and that's when I realized that I really don't want to move but I know its harder on her than it is on me so I wont say anything anyway the whole day I would run my hand over my ribs feeling each bone and it made me really happy.
Going to the gym with some one was great they just keep you going and also distract you we are going again on Friday. It drove me crazy that he would loses twice the calories I did in the same time and I had higher resistance and aligned our foot movements to go at the same time, he says its cause he is bigger but it still upsets me.

LOVE the second one-

xoxo-
Honey

hip bones!!!!

I can finally feel my hip bones with almost no fat in between! I can barley even grip any fat on my hips! WOOT hooray this totally makes up for yesterday . Today nothing really happened it was dull but at 6:30 I am going to the gym with my friend for the first time ever so lets hope that that works out. yep hope your day was evenful love honey :)